Lost forever

Wet are those leaves which are now sparkling with freshness
The rains did them good
But my eyes are wet and my cheeks are dry; when will this monsoon end
I hate rains... On the window panes and hate them on me...
There is a thunderstorm inside me, waiting to flow out;
Why are few words always used and not meant,
And why we build hopes on them,
It's a favour that the rain is now washing them all;
But here I'm
drenched in my rainfall,
The flood is all mine,
I don't expect miracles from you now,
It will wash me away... And leave no trace.

I would love to see your contentment then, your love with yourself, as I drain away with you in my heart.

Few questions….Unanswered!!

I ask you, each one of you reading this. Who gives us the authority to decide whether we are the right kind of people? yes, the right kind of cool people. 

Who gives us the permission to decide which family is good and which one isn’t, depending only on how they look or dress up?

And how is being educated classified as? Is it the way we talk or is it how we handle situations around us?

If it is how we talk then most of the people who are uneducated are far better in terms of being polite and being respectful than the ones who are educated and have a big mouth for everything. However, if it’s the second option then most of us are just wasting all our degrees. Handling emotions, words and actions together is the biggest test of all, because we know what could be the impact of any of these things going wrong.

One of the biggest mistake we do, yes we the big degree holders, is reacting to situations well before they have even fully unfolded. It gives us wrong direction and a complete hazy course of action.

Try breathing in before you react, like before you open your loud mouth and insult others or throw your hands around and land somebody a punch. Just breathe in before you even analyze your presence in that situation and take one step at a time.

Be patient with that waiter who’s getting your meal, be nice to that man punching you a parking ticket and moreover be nice to somebody who just looks poor from the outside but is a gem of a person from inside. Give yourself some time and see the difference.

Humanity has just lost its touch everywhere, let it not vanish completely.

Hold hands and hold it with love.

Respect others, the way you expect to be respected.

May be

May be its time to change, yes consider the fact that the old You is now depressing, scared, boring and a pessimist, then yes, not may be;  it’s time to change for sure.

Get done with boundaries and you will realize that you were in your well for way too long. So yes it’s time to get up and get out of that old place, old people, old habits and old assumptions of everyone around you.

NO, don’t tell the world anything but prove it to yourself what you are worth.  

Pack your bags and travel and if it’s too risky of a task for the new you then find something that makes you happy. Find that thing that makes you feel alive and brings you closer to yourself and away from the maddening crowd.

Or maybe, meet that old friend which you were avoiding from long but needed the most.

So do we have a fair idea yet of why am I asking you to be a hero for yourself.

Here is the answer; we all have those moments in life where we feel like we have lost it all and that we might not survive. But then it’s not the end of the world because nobody else is crashing. It’s your own Tsunami and your own earthquake and you are the only one who has to survive it and come out of it.

Yes, you are not a movie star or a rich spoilt kid to get things at your call; you need to get them to you. Because you are the hard working and self sufficient way-to-go moron (that’s a compliment)

So heads up and get going. Dance around, poke around and by all means live. Just breathing won’t do, live this life as a gift and live it for nobody but you.

Be full of love and you will get it back.

Be full of life and you will live.

Be spontaneous and you will find meaning.

Be a jerk and don’t give a damn that’s how you will find the real YOU.

Love story...was it..??

"Would you be able to find me in the crowd ?", she questioned.

" Ofcourse sweetheart, I will only look for you.", he smiled as he answered one more of her beautiful queries.

What was love for them? It was just rambling conversations, roaring laughter and meaningless games. They found happiness in their own small world, full of smiles.

But does things always happen the way we think they would. The answer is a big NO.

Love walks out from the window, the door or any other hole when priorities in life strike it, over power it.

The choices you make, the decisions you take are imperative when it comes to giving finishing touch to your life. Love doesnt understand all these complications and thus it stands aside and paves way for people to move ahead and decide.It moves away like a thief in the night.

Love doesnt complicate and it doesnt put any conditions.

Thus when its meant to be, it does and when it doesnt, love takes a step back.

She asked again, "Would you be able to find me in the crowd?"

"I will try, you can't expect so many things. It would be crowdy, I will try. Be realistic.", he replied irritatingly.

And this is how one more love story ended.

A never ending desire... Travelling...!!

Well let's suppose that you are earning good money( I mean the oh wow factor) and you check your bank account. There you find handosmely saved amount and thus your long lost desire of shopping good and travelling crazy, crops up. What do you do in such situations...?

If I get to judge all of you, my prediction says that half of us would just ignore this feeling because we don't have enough leave balance because we are the hard working idiots(pity..!!) but for the rest of us who are still reading this, we try and find a way out to curb this feeling.How do we do that, we plan our travel itinerary.
So there are a few lists in which all of us fall, I'm going to include myself in the list of hardcore travelling aspirants and thus I'm trying to make my travel itinerary for the upcoming months.

How well did I cope up...??

After hour long session of discussions with my friends and family, I unravelled thats its pretty labourious to make a travel itinery.But mind you guys, just when you are about to give up on the travel plans it comes to your mind that you were in the crazy travellers list that you made yourself..haha..and thus you sit up and try again.

Just to let you know, I might slip away to the lazy planner list and cancel the entire idea of making any plan, forget about even travelling. But then again, the travel crazy side of me pinches me hard and I'm up on my feet making another stupid plan to meet old friends or a mountaineering expedition. How well would I be able to execute it, that I guess would be another post on the blog.

Death..!!

Creeping in the past,
I told her to wait,
And cherish some moments,
Before I walk through that gate;

Inhaling undying memories,
With whom I can’t part,
She cannot snatch away,
Those mystic junctures of past;

My victories and debacles
Seems hazy as she drags me
But a hand holds me firm
It's love that she can't see;

And as I dive in the cold,
A smile spreads across my face,
I know, I have conquered her,
As I’m leaving with a trace.

The IPL show : Not so much a show for u.

Well you thought that you would have a great time watching those depressing matches this year yet again...so you gather your pool of friends and enter the kitchen first time in your life because you are the host.
You think of innumerable dishes which you definitely can't cook so herein you ask your younger sister who's a far better cook than you to help you out.
She helps you and you prepare what... FRENCH FRIES..!! Yeah probably the last dish on your mind.
So the food (oh so called food is ready) and you sit with beers and coke and you also try to bet in between to try and earn some money ( all because you are just a trainee right now and you earn peanuts)
By some irrevocable error, you win the bet and you think..' Oh wow nothing can go wrong today. '
But when that beer kicks in you are brought back to reality and the mess you are in right now which neither the IPL matches or your fries can fix, you remember the details of your day and the reason for inviting your friends over.
And now you ponder, what the hell am I doing...I need some time alone....to hell with the matches and the party...I have to think...I have to plan.
One more beer down and you flush away these thoughts and you look at the faces you have invited and you think...' I need to fix my life. '
Three beers down and you are in bed and you write stupid things and think...
' I want few things back in life' , but the question for the night and the three bottles down stupid drinker is...
' Would those things ever come back to you? '

life the way it is

Things are never the way we want them to. Because if they start being the way we want it to...then my friend what's the definition of life and its so called roller coaster ride.
Sounds theoretical but otherwise true.
We tie ourselves into relationships and we get so bundled up in them that we dont realise that life is just passing by. And we are stuck pleasing others...begging others to be in it when the only person who could make it happening is you yourself. The only one who is stopping you from being happy is you.
Why do we have to keep expectations from others when we can do all of the things by ourselves. Why is it that sometimes the sole reason for your happiness is that somebody else. And when you don't get that somebody else paying due attention to you...you feel miserable.
It's because your life becomes attached to that one being and the love it assures you.
Stay with that pillar...let it be your strength but do not let that pillar demolish your entire existence. The pillar would re align again if you want to but the question again is...Do you want to give up the key of your happiness in the hands of that somebody else...which undoubtedly is everything for you.

food for thought

Well they say..confidence lies within. True that.
It could be coming from the red hot undies you are wearing..;)
So when somebody tells u...confidence lies within...well just smile and say 'yes it indeed does.'
The road of confidence somehow finds happiness along.

Funny...how one can find happiness in smallest of things. Wearing a hot undie or even a sexy brassiere. Nobody knows the real reason for your happiness and they can find their own happiness...probably...by just looking at your happy face.
So in short...you are happy and confident and making others around you happy and confident.
Its such a chain reaction. But imagine telling every other person the reason for your happiness...and you will be laughed at. Haha...such a weird circle.

your eyes

Your eyes, they did something
To me and I lost myself
Appreciating the calmness in them
To that brown black colour
And a hint of sheer
I want to kiss them and
Mirror my shadow in them

Your irrestible lips
They stretched into a smile
And I was lost again
In the serenity of ur face
The effect it had on me
Was beyond words

As I gasp for your scent
Looking into your eyes
And lips curved in a vivacious smile
Its hard for me
To stay away from you
But its just a picture
And you are far away

My breathing is heavy
And I'm lusting, lusting for a kiss with you
I close my eyes
Pictured you, that heavenly face
And I think, I have found my God
As others search for Him
I'm sure I have my light
The one I see my happiness in

As you, are my lust, my love, my hope, my prayer, my need and my life.

frozen thoughts

Frozen nights
when will you arrive
With the warmth and calmness
And you by my side
  To fill this void
  Of cold breaths and thunder in my heart
  Of restlessness, tossing and turning
A blank stare at the sky
Of numerous thoughts
  A crinkle at the corner of ur eye
  Your whispering deep voice
  Restless and curious hands
  Twinkling and smiling eyes
It leaves me tangled
In threads and pieces
And a cold embrace of my own
Wherein I dream
Of your warm hands
  Submerging myself in the ocean
  Of beats, rhythmic to mine
  And drift away to sleep
  In a world of our own.

stars and the loneliness

Starry but lonely
Why nights are beautiful and yet ugly
you throw around your hands
And find darkness;
But its d same time
When you r extremely close
As I shut my eyes
To d world arnd me;
Ur touch lingers
In my memory and on my skin
It drifts me away
From darkness to light;
Wherein I'm bathing
In ur aura and radiance
dazzling with love
And contented soul;
I no longer feel alone
Or grasp the darkness around me
It goes away
But pinches as it departs;
Departs with sting of reality
That u r far
And I'm lonely
With just beautiful thoughts;
I want it to end
To stop writing 
About lonely nights or gripping darkness
I want to see that day;
When I will sleep in ur arms
Peaceful and relaxed
To wake up to a morning
With your whiff on me.

Whenever my heart skips a beat,

I know its u deep within,

My world of dreams floats across,

I search verily for something,

A glint in your eyes, a smile on your face,

Makes promises to me u never said,

Though I know u r not with me,

Its u, in my dreams, I always had,

Hold my hands and take me away,

From all shackles of pretences,

And hold me close to your breath,

One touch from u will erase all distances,

Waiting for that moment to come across,

I am splurging in the depth,

This timeless journey has just begun,

Trying to weave threads to its end,

That end which will mark a beginning,

that moment which would lie still,

My tears would find a way out,

With love, my eyes would fill,

Till den, I’m waiting for that knock,

that destiny would mark for us,

Things fated will fall into places,

But our togetherness is must.

The pink and blue colours
Admist this, a flock of birds
The wind in my hair
And a faint melody
  It says that I'm lost
  In beauty, around me
  And memories of you
  Wrapped delicately In me
The continuous rubble
Crashing the silence I'm in
But withers away
When I fail to acknowledge it
  Beats of my heart
  In rhythm with the melody
  Of the music in my ears
  And vague touch of ur absence
It craves and demands
The smell of your skin
Brushing of ur hands
On my neck
   But it dawns on me
   Yet again, that I'm just lost
   In your dreams
   And million possibilities
The day, all of it
Will be a reality
That I will breathe in,
Would suffice my yearning.

You are not there and I know it
And I want to hold u so bad
Tell you that I'm terrible here
And this distance makes me sad
The memories clash in my head
Every other trying to win
But each moment with u was special
It pokes my heart like a pin
D distance is driving me crazy
I need u in my arms now
To hug u and never leave u
I'm ready to take d vow
I miss u
Terribly badly and insanely
And I cry every night
And wish
To touch u
To feel u
To hear ur heart thump
Right next to me
And I would give up anything for this